Issue #23: I Turned 32 Yesterday and Didn't Cry
a birthday celebration from a chronic birthday crier & recap of the hardest year of my life
Yesterday I turned 32 and am beyond thrilled to say goodbye to the hardest year of my life.
I didn’t make a lot of plans, as plans are normally where the birthday tears come into play. Something doesn’t go right, or it doesn’t meet my [complicated expectations] all for the inevitable let down.
I crossed my fingers the night before going to sleep that the sun would *finally* come out in Zurich and that I would get a nice day for my birthday. I was thrilled when my husband woke me up to see the sun shining. When I walked out into our living room I was so surprised to see an adorable birthday set up [when you live in a small apartment it’s pretty hard to keep surprises so this one impressed me!]
I didn’t make many plans for the day, as I honestly wasn’t sure what I wanted or needed. My husband encouraged me to do something for me and booked me a massage that was amazing [and much needed]. After I had myself a shopping afternoon in the city, and then we headed to a delicious dinner and drinks in the city [stay tuned for that recap on Sunday! If you live in Zurich YOU have to check out the restaurant I will be sharing].
I felt pretty good, which I can’t say everyday. I am often torn between physical symptoms and mental struggles and often don’t know what one came first.
But all of this to say: I didn’t cry on my birthday. And I am honestly really happy about that. And I also felt happy. Like genuinely happy, which especially after the year I’ve had, was a win.
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Read on for a recap of 31 [why it was the hardest year of my life], a realistic conversation around health issues, and what I learned and am excited to take into 32.
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